When things are going well on the helm, it’s incredible. It’s powerful. You can feel the force of the water pressing against the helm in your hands. You are in a position of ultimate control. You know where you’re going and how to get there. The boat does as you say.
This rarely happened.
You might think that steering would be less difficult than, say, hoisting up several hundred pounds of sail. Or finding your location in the world from just the declination of a star. Or calculating at exactly what time the sun will be at its zenith. But you would be wrong on all accounts.
Unlike a bicycle or car, a ship does not respond immediately to turning the wheel, which means you must sense when to stop turning the wheel before you get on the desired course. Assuming you don’t over-correct (I usually did), you must then hold this desired course for any number of hours. This means paying attention to the true direction of the wind (which is tricky when there is an apparent wind due to the motion of the boat). This means paying attention to changes in weather. This means paying attention to how full the sails are. This means paying attention to how much right rudder or left rudder you might need to use. This means … I sucked at steering.
I notice one night, around 4:00am, that I am having more and more difficulty maintaining the course ordered, and have to constantly change my steering. Eventually, all actions become useless. I decide to inform the chief mate, attempting to mask all terror in my voice.
Hey … Chief Mate? I squeak. Something’s wrong with the helm.
Wrong with the helm? says Chief Mate. I don’t think so.
Yes, there is! I say, a little indignant.
Well … what’s the ship doing? asks Chief Mate.
Absolutely nothing I tell it to do. The helm is useless. By now, I am panicking, because the boat seems to be doing exactly the opposite of what I am steering.
Be more specific, says Chief Mate. What is the ship doing?
Well … [painfully long pause] … It goes left when I steer right, and right when I steer left! Something is terribly, horribly wrong! I say, imagining that some gear has gotten itself reversed and–horror–I have broken the helm.
Chief Mate looks up at the sails. Chief Mate goes over to the railing and looks at the water. Chief Mate begins to laugh at me. Chief Mate informs me: the ship is going backwards.
Apparently, with my supreme lack of talent on the helm, I had steered the bow of the ship directly into the wind. Nice work, dumbass. I wish I could say that this were the only time I put a 135-foot brigantine into reverse, but, as it turns out, it happened to me again… three more times.